Fuel

When I feel your eyes on me I fall to my knees
And I wait for your look to judge and define me
I’m just a soft shell melting between your hands
Starving for substance, identity
I am not afraid of this act of mutual creation
I gain from you as you gain from me
I’d never try to place my sins on your shoulders
I know that is just the way it works

You’re my mirror
Everything I do I see through you
You’re my mirror
Me, in your eyes I hide
You’re my mirror
What you see is what you put in me
You’re my mirror
In your eyes

As I turn around to leave, still in your shape
I catch a glimpse of my reflection in the pane by your bed
What an odd surprise to bump into myself like that
No wall to send me back my call
I can see right through myself to the flowers on your lawn
And the empty space before me swallows everything you’ve given me
I turn back to your look to find peace in your conception
I’m nothing without you, I’m hollow without you

I see in his eyes an insecurity, childishly submissive
I say foolish things I do foolish things for attention
I find in her look some kind of unfamiliar hardness
In her eyes I’m a cynic, an ever-conscious cynic

You’re my mirror
Everything I do I see through you
You’re my mirror
Me, in your eyes I hide
You’re my mirror
What you see is what you put in me
You’re my mirror

You’re my mirror…

It’s not as simple as that
It’s not as easy as you would want to think
I’m not as strong as I seem
Born to suck life from the pain that you cause me

I could’ve sworn I had you wrapped around my finger
I could’ve sworn I had you eating of off my hand
I could’ve sworn I was the first, the last, the one, the only…

I should’ve known that you’re not easily persuaded
I should’ve known that you’re not that easy to impress
I should’ve known that I’d be the one to lose my head and heart and marbles
I’m down on my knees

Shaking, hardly breathing
I’m aching, silently heating

When you’re watching me like that
Fuel to the fire
When you’re touching me like that
Fuel to the fire
And when you’re kissing me like that
Fuel to the fire
And when we make love like this
I burn with desire
Fuel to the fire burning…

So don’t tell me you didn’t mean for this to happen
You won’t be here when I wake up
You’ve gotta tell me that you will give in and out and up and over
That you’re down on your knees

Shaking, hardly breathing
I’m aching, silently heating

When you’re watching me like that
Fuel to the fire
When you’re touching me like that
Fuel to the fire
And when you’re kissing me like that
Fuel to the fire
And when we make love like this
I burn with desire
Fuel to the fire

Burning…

When you’re watching me like that
Fuel to the fire
When you’re touching me like that
Fuel to the fire
And when you’re kissing me like that
Fuel to the fire
And when we make love…
It’s fuel to the fire in me

Forever
I could search for words
And nothing I would find
Forever
I could seek your truth
And nothing you’d reveal

So now I must leave while I can
While I’m still in one piece
Either way I will be lonely
And maybe you’ll see what I meant
Maybe it’s not much
Maybe… We’ll see

Forever
I could await your call
And nothing I would hear
And never
Would I find peace
Oh no, with you

So now I must leave while I can
While I’m still in one piece
And either way I will be lonely
And maybe you’ll see what I meant
Maybe it’s not much
Maybe…

Maybe you’ll see that you needn’t be frightened
You can do better
You know better
Should I find courage to keep on pushing you
Maybe you’d open?

Who am I fooling?

Forever…

Don’t misunderstand me now
But when people saw a match in you and I
I always wondered why
I always thought we were the strangest combination
Heat and cold, obedience versus defiance
But I kind of figured I’d take one day at a time
May as well try before we say goodbye
And now I realise you’ve sneaked up on my heart
And left me loving you, this time I can’t deny

I have never needed you like this before
Now I don’t waste my energy on doubts no more

All of a sudden it seems obvious that this was meant to be
They saw through you and me
They saw that underneath that arrogance of yours
I’d find a fragile heart as loving as can be
I know I’ve let you down a hundred times before
I’d sometimes flee
I’m sorry, that’s just me
But you’ve convinced me with the strenth of this pure love
And now it’s my turn to set in to make you see

I have never needed you like this before
Now I don’t waste my energy on doubts no more

Did I push you away with my doubts
When I left you lonely then
Not knowing when we’d meet again?
Did I hesitate for too long
Has your love given up on me
Ready now to let it be?

I know I’ve let you down a hundred times before
I’d sometimes flee
I’m sorry, that’s just me
But you’ve convinced me with the strenth of this pure love
And now it’s my turn to set in to make you see

I have never needed you like this before
Now I don’t waste my energy on doubts no more
I have never needed you like this before
What it is you’re giving me I just want more…

If I’d had what you have
Had been bad like you have
Heaven help me
If I’d lied like you lie
Had the guts to deny
Heaven help me
If I’d lost my head
Like you keep losing your head
Heaven help me
If I’d done what you’ve done
Pushed erase and moved on
Heaven help me out

If I’d done what you’ve done
You would turn away
If I’d sinned like you’ve sinned
You would choke with dismay
And you would wash your hands in the distain that feeds on your guilt
You would not find that silence leaves you blind

I don’t bite like you bite
Heaven see me
I try hard to be real
I don’t hide what I feel
Heaven see me
Whereas you…
I can’t tell when you fake
I don’t show when you break
Heaven see me
I don’t run from what I do
’cause I can’t run as fast as you
Heaven see me through

If I’d done what you’ve done
You would turn away
If I’d sinned like you’ve sinned
You would choke with dismay
And you would wash your hands in the distain that feeds on your guilt
You would not see me

You don’t have to tell
There’s no need for us to dweel
I know that it makes no difference at all
The problem that we face is that you cannot embrace
That it goes both ways

If I’d done what you’ve done
You would turn away
If I’d sinned like you’ve sinned
You would choke with dismay
If I’d run like you
If I’d lied like you
You’d wash your hands

Silence is a choice it doesn’t buy you riskfree neutrality
Doesn’t buy you off
It’s a statement and I never fail to catch your point

You sit by the window
Watching the wind blow his childish affection
In every direction
He screams when you whisper
Laughs when you cry
But this voice inside you
Keeps you from asking him why

You wanna see how far he’ll take it
Shine as you come to heel
You wanna see how long you can fake it
Knowing you’d better

Watch your tongue now girl
Watch your tongue now girl
Watch your tongue now girl
I bet you’d look real pretty
If you’d lay off the self-pity
Watch your tongue now girl

I like to disturb you
I like to dig into your meaningless phrases
Your various faces
I love to talk dirty
I love to make fun
But it’s hard when I’m staring into the barrel of your gun

I wanna see how far I can make it
Shine as I come to heel
I wanna be someone, I won’t fake it
And don’t you tell me

Watch your tongue now girl
Watch your tongue now girl
Watch your tongue now girl
I bet you’d look real pretty
If you’d stop trying to be witty
Watch your tongue now girl
And let the boys…

I can’t keep quiet…

Everyone stares
Awkwardly drawn
They watch her pretend to be as boring as she seems
I’m on my toes
I hang on her words
I ache to reveal the dark potential in her dreams

So I tear her apart
‘Cause I’m curious to know what’s inside her belly
I tear hear apart
‘Cause I’m curious to know, yes, I’m curious to know
What is inside?

What is her secret?
The storm in her eyes
Her disguise
The truth in her lies
What is her secret?
It’s breaking her down to the ground

A stain on her dress
The air heavy with fear
Every story her eyes can tell
Will lead you back to here

So you tear her apart
‘Cause you’re curious to know what’s inside her belly
You tear hear apart
‘Cause you’re curious to know, yes, you’re curious to know
What is inside?

What is her secret?
The storm in her eyes
Her disguise
The truth in her lies
What is her secret?
It’s breaking her down to the ground

I tear hear apart
‘Cause I’m curious to know, yes, I’m curious to know
What is inside?
What lies behind?

What is her secret?
The storm in her eyes
Her disguise
The truth in her lies
What is her secret?
It’s breaking her down to the ground

I’ve never seen you this restless before
So displeased, not the least bit ingrained where you are
I see you fade as your goals where you out
You add up, you sum up, what attained so far?
Every minute is precious to you
Fall behind, back in line, wasting your time
I say the end doesn’t justify a thing
‘Cause right now, what about now
Couldn’t I clear out your mind?

Let me be your waste of time
I can be anything you need
Your demanding I will meet
If you want it
I bet you’ll be begging me for more
’cause what I give you can’t ignore
I assure you won’t be bored if you let me
Won’t you let me…

You fear the day you wake up by my side
Way too old, too established to do as you please
When you please
Afraid of all the regrets you might have
Why did I…? Why didn’t I…?
Can’t stop wondering why
No matter how hard you try
You’ll be sorry, your glory will fade when you look back
But I promise you that
You won’t be missing out on a thing
Take your time, waste your time
Let me clear out your mind

Let me be your waste of time
I can be anything you need
Your demanding I will meet
If you want it
I bet you’ll be begging me for more
’cause what I give you can’t ignore
I assure you won’t be bored if you let me
Won’t you let me…

Every second is precious to you
(How you strive)
Wait in line to sign up
(Hasten through life)
For what?
(What for?)
I say the end doesn’t justify a thing
‘Cause right now, what about now
Couldn’t I clear out your mind?

Let me be your waste of time
I can be anything you need
Your demanding I will meet
If you want it
I bet you’ll be begging me for more
’cause what I give you can’t ignore
I assure you won’t be bored if you let me

Hear me out
I have to tell you something
Your endless hesitation wears me out
I know that’s just who you are
You’re… Quiet…

But all that I want
All that I need
Is a little bit of honesty
When it comes to the matter of your inner wishes and wants
Why is that such a problem for you?

Hear me out
I really have to tell you
Your calm preoccupation wears me out
With all that you do and all that you say
It’s a little bit too bizarre
You’re not giving me one good reason to hold on

Won’t you hear me
It’s hard enough as it is
Oh baby, you’re so airy
It’s driving me crazy
Won’t you hear me
It’s hard enough as it is
Oh baby, you make me worry

We have to try both you and I
‘Cause we are different
I’ll let it show, you have to know
That I am different
It is up to you, give me a clue
How are you different?
Just reach out to me, just let me see…

Help me out
I really need to know you
Your casual concealments freak me out
What, you think I can’t tell?
With all that I’ve heard, all that they say
It’d be a little bit strange for you to say no
I reckon that’s still a problem for you
Ask me out
You could help me on my way
Some sense of empathy is one of those fundamental things
That anyone should know
Yet every time and every way we go
It feels is if I’m always two steps behind

Won’t you hear me
It’s hard enough as it is
Oh baby, you’re so airy

We have to try both you and I
‘Cause we are different
I’ll let it show, you have to know
That I am different
It is up to you, give me a clue
How are you different?
Just reach out to me, just let me see…

How can you love when you don’t know me?

It’s cold when it’s October here
So I guess I won’t see you at my birthday this year
And who’d have thought a love like this
Would wither and wash out as a winter pulls near
I’m not gonna cry about it
No, I’m just gonna lie about it
Your laughter filling my sails

So
Back where we started
Back where we started
And why don’t we just leave it
No
Not broken-hearted
Just back where we started
And why don’t we just leave it at that
Leave it at that…

The summer asked no questions
And the winds found no excuse to abridge our story
(Over)
Nature is a faithless friend
And counting on her favours will make you sorry
(Over)
I’m not gonna cry about you
It’s not like I’ll die without you
Your laughter filling my sails

So
Back where we started
Back where we started
And why don’t we just leave it
No
Not broken-hearted
Just back where we started
And why don’t we just leave it at that
Leave it at that…

I wouldn’t put my bets on me if I were you
I bet you’d find I’m not as balanced as I seem
I need to redecorate at least a hundred thousand times a day
Can’t let anything take root
And loving me you’d always be a slave to this confusion

So if I’m on the way to your heart
If I’m on the way to your heart
Send my best to your heart
If I’m on the way to your heart
Heaven help you

Some day you’ll ask me what’s the source of this despair
I might as well just turn my back on you and leave
’Cause it’s the same damn thing every time I try to fill somebody in
Too many words is silence
And loving me you’d always be a slave to this frustration
And I would be the unknown quantity in your equation

So if I’m on the way to your heart
If I’m on the way to your heart
Send my best to your heart
If I’m on the way to your heart
Heaven help you

I’d love to love you tomorrow too
But I’m unable to promise to be there for you
Reflecting’s got me freaking
And you can’t speed up the solving
I only hope
I hope to love you tomorrow too

Now you should heed these words if you care about yourself
And try to reason do you dare play this wicked game
If you get too involved then you know you’ve got an awful lot to lose
In the end you’ll be alone
’Cause loving me you’ll always be a slave to this frustration
And I will be the unknown quantity in you equation

So if I’m on the way to your heart
If I’m on the way to your heart
Send my best to your heart
If I’m on the way to your heart
Heaven help you

I’d love to love you tomorrow too
But I’m unable to promise to be there for you
Reflecting’s got me freaking
And you can’t speed up the solving
I only hope
I hope to love you tomorrow too