The Trilogy

If you ever pass by where I used to live
And should you bump in to the man I was with
Back when I didn’t know what to believe
Please, will you tell him from me

That I loved him with every beat of my heart
I’d tremble with longing when we were apart
Oh, I’d ache to pull him in close
I don’t think he knows

The last thing I heard he was losing his job
I guess they’d found out that he rarely turned up
He hated it there only stayed for me
Please, will you make him believe

That I always thought you should follow your dreams
However hard and uncertain it seems
I’d have loved him whatever he chose
I don’t think he knows

I lives grew apart, it’s been just over a year
For reasons I can’t really tell you about here
Love wasn’t nearly enough in the end
Please, will you tell him again

That I hurt myself more than I ever hurt him
I wasn’t as distant and cold as I seemed
I was lost all the way into my bones
I don’t think he knows

When the dust had settled he moved on as well
He found a new girl that he loved, I could tell
And my mind started wandering jealously
Please, will you ask him from me

If really he thought that I was the one
Or were we just sharing some time on the run
Did he love me with peace and with hope
I don’t really know…

I didn’t come to solve a case
To step in someone else’s place
To mold you in to someone else
To save you from yourself

I didn’t come to steal your thoughts
To analyze you, find your faults
I didn’t come to change your mind
And turn your eyes blind

I’ve never picked your brains for any answers
There’s nothing here I feel we need to solve
I’ve never pushed to break through your defences
That’s not why I’m here with you at all

Stranger, I just came to get to know you
Just to sit next to you for a bit
Stranger, I just came to get to know you
Wouldn’t it be a shame if I never did?

I didn’t come to change your past
To cut us in to equal halves
To mold you in to someone new
Who thinks like I do

I didn’t come to take control
To eat your heart out, kill your soul
I didn’t come to change your mind
And turn your eyes blind

I’ve never asked you questions ’bout tomorrow
Here and now is where I wanna stay
I’ve given you no rules or roads to follow
That’s not why I’m sitting here today

Stranger, I just came to get to know you
Just to sit next to you for a bit
Stranger, I just came to get to know you
Wouldn’t it be a shame if I never did?

Stranger, I just came to get to know you
See whatever hides under the lid
Stranger, I just came to get to know you
Wouldn’t it be a shame if no-one never did?

I have looked at it from every scientific point of view
Been through all the possibilities
And looked at every stat and every clue

I have put myself through an extensive lie detector test
And the outline from the needle point have proven
What my heart had already guessed:

That I’m in love
I’m in love
I’m in love with a beautiful man
I’m in love
I’m in love
I’m in love and it’s almost more than I can stand

So I guess I better tell him….

That I’m in love…

In every heart
There’s a hole
There’s a space
for something new

At every start
There’s a goal
There’s a place
We’re running to

But in my strangest dreams
Through nights of feverish screams
I don’t know what it means
But all I see is you
And when I’ve run too far
Chasing that lonesome star
I don’t know who you are
But all I see is you…

In every girl
There’s a door
An open gate
To walk right through

But every girl
Wants much more
Than she can take
And hold on to

And in my highest hopes
My brushes biggest strokes
A heavy stone that floats
All I see is you
With fear that won’t let go
Tears that won’t stop to flow
The truth I’ll never know
All I see is you…
All I want is you…

And in my highest hopes
My brushes biggest strokes
A heavy stone that floats
All I see is you
And when I’ve run too far
Chasing that lonesome star
I don’t know who you are
But all I see is you…
All I want is you…
All I have is you…

I watched a flood on my tv today
I couldn’t say from where
Just another flood on my tv

I wasn’t bothered it was far away
Worlds away from here
From my family and me

But just for a second I could feel
This safe and independant life of mine is not real
Just for a second I could see
That nothing is forever and nothing is for free

When will I go and make a change
I’ve got the time and I let it waste
I frown at people who don’t care but I’m just the same
I wanna make a difference
Maybe some other day

A bomb went off not far from here tonight
And now I’m wide awake
Tossing and a-turning in my bed

A glass of Hennessy sits by my side
But with every sip I take
These visions creep into my head

Just in this second I can see
The lights go and bricks and ceilings tumbling on me
Just in the second I can hear
The steps of panicked neighbours
The sound of fear

When will I go and make a change
I’ve got the time and I let it waste
I frown at people who don’t care but I’m just the same
I wanna make a difference
Maybe some other day

It was a mild and lively evening at the end of May
I had run out for one quick coffee at the corner cafe
I must have looked a little tense and over-worked, I guess
‘Cause this old man leaned in and said:
“My darling, what’s the stress?
Come sit, come have a moment’s rest
Your work is nothing worth unless
Your mind is calm and clear and at its best”

And he went on:
“To everyone who’s running faster every day,” he said
“To everyone who’s not found peace and indepence yet and
To everyone who thinks that life is where they’re headed to
Who thinks a better day awaits as soon as they get through
These busy years of things to do
This wall of greedy cynics who
persuade them to give up their dreams too soon

Take your time
It’s a quarter to forever now
Take your time
It’s a quarter to forever now

To everyone who thinks that love was just a dream they had
Who thinks tomorrow and the future has nothing new to add and
To everyone who’s watched their hopes run out and slam the door
And everyone who still don’t know what they are looking for or
Found it and dropped it on the floor
Whose hands and arms have gotten sore
From holding on too tight to what once was

Take your time
It’s a quarter to forever now
Take your time
It’s a quarter to forever now

Who’s gonna sing a song of change
If no-one can imagine life outside the beaten track
And who’s gonna stop a running train
If no-one cares to dwell and no-one wants to look back

Somewhere along the line you gave up asking
When it got a little too complex
But if you don’t question what has been
Does it mean that you don’t care what’s coming next

You got no-one to follow
And no-one will follow you
Ain’t that a relief
That everything and everyone
Must grow in opposition to resistance
And contradiction
This ain’t no time to go to sleep
This ain’t no time to go to sleep

So who’s gonna sing a song of faith
If no-one prays for anything that can’t be bought and sold
And who’s gonna tell the story straight
Does anyone believe there’s still a story to be told

Somewhere along the line you just stopped walking
When the under current got too strong
But someday a lonesome busker will come knocking
With a soft and long-forgotten song

You got no-one to follow
And no-one will follow you
Ain’t that a relief
That everything and everyone
Must grow in opposition to resistance
And contradiction
This ain’t no time to go to sleep
This ain’t no time to go to sleep

The Fallen Madonna
Stripped from the clothes she once wore
Gone from a saint to a whore
Beautiful girl
Where were your eyes

The Fallen Madonna
Benched at the end of the line
In the Sunken Cathedral of Time
Beautiful girl
Caught in your own head lights

The Fallen Madonna
Asleep at the wheel
Taking the long way home
With a dream to kill
Singing what do I know?
And who can I trust?
When all I can call my own
Is the memory of all I’ve lost

I can’t hold on anymore
I can’t go it alone
I can’t be hard anymore
I need somebody to hold me

The Fallen Madonna
A flash in the night
And ain’t a long way down
When you’ve climbed so high
Come on give us your best
Be perfect and strong
Come give your audience a bow
And sing us one last song

I can’t hold on anymore
I can’t go it alone
I can’t be hard anymore
I need somebody to hold
I can’t hold on anymore
I can’t go it alone
I can’t be hard anymore
I need somebody to hold me

You were given nothing as a child
Now that’s a lot to carry
You’ve been empty-handed all you life
A heavy weight to carry

Things could be different
But it wouldn’t be the same
You wouldn’t be the man I love
Without this weight

All these years feeling small and misplaced
The only lonely man on Noah’s Arc
All these years dealing with radio active waste
Has made you glow in the dark
Don’t you know you glow in the dark

You’ve been digging graves since we first met
You’ve got a lot to bury
From the empty closets in your head
A heavy weight to carry

Things could be better
But it wouldn’t feel this good
I wouldn’t change a thing about you
If I could

’Cause all these years feeling small and misplaced
The only lonely man on Noah’s Arc
All these years dealing with radio active waste
Has made you glow in the dark
Don’t you know you glow in the dark

You glow…

I’m flying over London
On a cold November night
The river snakes across the vast ocean of electric lights
Fast and weightless like this marvel in the sky
The young and restless skateboard in the dark beneath the closing London Eye

I’m flying over London
Looking down at busy streets
I scout to find a few familiar places looking up at me
Seven years since I first got of off this plane
And still this city doesn’t know my stories or my dreams orm y first name

Someday I have to say goodbye
To the city that showed me, awoke me and broke me
Someday I have to say goodbye to London

I press against the window
My forehead cold and numb
As I search through blurry memories to trace the woman I’ve become
Between St. Mark, Brick Lane and Eve’s Market Cafe
I found myself in pjeces
Took what I could carry and I threw the rest away

I’m flying over London
On a cold November night
Unlit parks like bullet wounds in the blanket of electric lights
The city is a living creature all on its own
And we all push like blood through its veins
So close together
So alone

Someday I have to say goodbye
To the city that thrilled me and built me and killed me
Someday I have to say goodbye to London
Someday I have to say goodbye
To the city that moved me and soothed me, confused me
Someday I have to say goodbye to London

Oh, when lovers meet
A crowded bar
To an empty street
He takes her arm
She shuts her eyes
Who would’ve thought that we could reach these heights

Oh, when lovers part
With each a half of a broken heart
And hopeless tears
From eyelashes leap
Who would’ve thought that we could fall so deep

Heaven and hell
Hand in hand

Oh, when lovers dance
With carefull feet and curious hands
The rythms grow
From hidden depths
Who would’ve thought that we would know these steps

Oh, when lovers meet
Soft kisses on a blushing cheek
Our touches ask
What no-one knows
Why even love like this comes and goes

Heaven and hell
Cheek to cheek

Heaven and hell
Side by side

I met a friend in a bar last night
A girl from a far away past
We counted and worked out that it’d been more than seven years
Since we saw each other last

She looked so much older, I have to say
She used to dress so lively and smart
Now her colours they were faded and her hair was a mess
Her expression was tired and hard

I asked her what she had been up to since then
She hesitated a while
She drew a nervous breath and sighed ”Not much, to be honest”
Through a shame-faced smile

We sat there all night
Side by side
The conversation was slow
A few times I got up and said ”Ok, well…”
But I could tell she didn’t want me to go

At 3 in the morning she suddenly said
”The truth is I’ve done nothing at all
My mind’s been much too busy thinking of a man
And waiting for him to call”

”He left me on the day that I turned 21
For years now I’ve been on my own
I’m scared that if I change or if I leave my house too long
I won’t be there when he decides to come home”

I asked about the man and her eyes lit up
The taste of his name brought her right out of her shell
She said ”It wasn’t always easy, he’s a complicated man
But I know he loves me and I know he meant well”

”He still calls now and then in the dead of my nights
He asks if I’m alone in bed
And I tell him ’Babe, of course I am, I’m yours now and forever
Please don’t hang up!’ and then the line goes dead”

Wow, nice guy…

I met a friend in a bar last night
A girl that lives in the past
I got up on my feet and I ran out
Thinking ’Please, don’t let me catch the cruel disease she has!’

Driving up the coast
Eyes on the road
Nowhere in particular to go
Eyes on the road

You ask me what’s my philosophy
And I say ”Well, there is one thing I know about being happy:
It’s not about taming your pain and your fear and your enemy
You gotta let’em all loose and surrender to life’s uncertainty
Eyes on the road”

The road…

She quoted one of my saddest songs
The day she broke your sacred heart
She said ”I don’t know which I prefer: to stay or go
But I’ve decided on the road”

You ask me what is my advice
And it’s true I’ve been down this road once or twice
And there are things you can’t change and defeats you can’t deny
And you’ll waste your time and your life and your love if you try
Eyes on the road

The road…

From time to time
The tables turn
You cross a line
Get your fingers burnt
Suddenly is a new situation

From day to day
Dot to dot
Case to case
‘Til the chord is cut
Suddenly is a new situation

Everybody wants to believe they hold a ticket
To the train to the promised land
Everybody wants to believe it ain’t no lie
One day I woke from a dream on a rocket
Coming back from another planet
Don’t think I’m ever gonna understand
Why…

Nothing is what it used to be
These white walls are all new to me
Time is the doctor and I’m his patient
I don’t know what he’s done to me
A gentle push or brain surgery
It’s gonna take some imagination
This new situation

From A to Z
Through and through
The destiny
I thought I knew
Suddenly was an open ending

I learnt the trick
I did the time
My eyes fixed
On the finishing line
All it was was a new beginning

Everybody dreams of a happy ever after
And gold at the rainbows end
Everybody wants to believe it ain’t no lie
Everybody wants the machine to run faster
Faster, out of hand
I don’t think I’m ever gonna understand
Why…

Nothing is what it used to be
These white walls are all new to me
Time is the doctor and I’m his patient
I don’t know what he’s done to me
A gentle push or brain surgery
It’s gonna take some imagination
This new situation

Nothing is what it used to be
These four walls are all new to me
Time is the doctor and I’m his patient
I don’t know what he’ll do to us
But things will change, I know that much
It’s gonna take some imagination
This new situation

Stains
Look at all these stains
Look at it running down these walls
Into the drain

Shame
I don’t feel no shame
I don’t feel nothing but relief
To be alone

It’s a cold heart that did what I did
Should be so hard to live with it
Should be sorry
But I feel no regret

Lies
Listen to these lies
Listen to them jumping from my tongue
Into your life

It’s a cold heart that did what I did
I should be so hard to live with it
I should be sorry
But I feel no regret

Do you ever get the feeling
There’s something here you’re not catching
A spiderweb of meaning
That you could never imagine
Do you ever get the feeling
You’re just a passenger
In a hit-and-run car
Going no-where but far
From the accident
Me, I often get the feeling
Things are not how I imagine

There’s something behind the walls
These walls
These walls
Hidden behing the walls
There’s something behind the walls
These walls
These walls
Hidden behing the walls

Do you ever get the feeling
You’re everybody’s misunderstanding
It’s like you’re calling up the ceiling
And it’s these walls that keep answering
Do you ever get the feeling
You’re a mystery
You’re a secret so deep
Even you can’t perceive
What’s really happening
Me, I often get the feeling
I’m a big misunderstanding

There’s something behind the walls
These walls
These walls
Hidden behing the walls
There’s something behind the walls
These walls
These walls
Hidden behing the walls

“I don’t do this sort of thing,” I said
As he leaned in and ran his fingers through my hair
I could tell he didn’t believe me
And I could tell from his sweet smile he didn’t care

He slipped his hand under my skirt
And for a moment I looked deep in to his eyes
I didn’t see much in there
Apart from an emptiness I sadly recognised

“Let me take you far away from here,” he said
“I know some magic that is sure to pick you up!”
I thought of me alone in my cold hotel bed
And I said “Yeah, well… Why not…”

He took me back to where he lives
We had a drink and tried to start a friendly chat
But none of us felt much like talking
About the lives that we were there to forget

And so he lay me on the bed
And we undressed as street lights sliced us through the blinds
His skin felt warm against my body
But my body couldn’t hold on to my mind

I drifted far away above this strangers room
My thoughts got lost in the crowded streets of yesterday
Until he stopped…
And asked if he had come too soon
I shook my head and turned away

We lay a little while in silence
Until I got up, got dressed and splashed cold water on my face
“I better go,” I said politely
“I don’t usually stay out this late…”

She was standing at the barrier by Security Check
That was as far as they’d let her
Trails of mascara down her cheeks and her neck
Worried her loved one might forget her

He is leaving today
I watched him run, run, run
To catch his plane
Determination on his face
Nothing could stop him
He had to get away

She’ll be waiting till the end of the world
Just because he didn’t say the word:
“No”
She’ll be such a strange and unsettled girl
Just because he didn’t say the word:
“Bye…”

It reminded me of something I’ve been trying to forget
A window I left wide open
The day I didn’t say the words that I should’ve said
And left a hungry man hoping

I was leaving that day
I had to run, run, run
To catch my train
I heard him calling out my name
But nothing could stop me
I had to get away

He’ll be waiting till the end of time
Just because I couldn’t say the word:
“No”
It’ll rattle at the back of his mind
Just because I couldn’t say the word:
“Bye…”

So if you’re leaving
Say the word
If you’re leaving me
You gotta say the word

Or I’ll be waiting till the end of time
Just because you haven’t said the word:
“No”
It’ll rattle at the back of my mind
Just because you haven’t said the word:
“Bye…”

Tell Mama you’ll be ok
Tell her stay calm
Tell Daddy it’s much too late
To twist your arm

It’s time to go and find something that’s yours
That no one can steal away
It’s time to open the doors
To your secret place

There’s no answer as big as the question
There’s no victory as big as the lesson
You go on and you see where your detours
Will take you to
There’s no power like understanding
There’s no beginning like an open ending
You hold on you don’t stop to believe
If you follow through
You will learn what is good for you
Someday soon you will know what is best for you

Tell Mama you be alright
Tell her have faith

It’s time to go and find something that’ll last
That no one can lose or break
It’s time to own up to the task
And go make your own mistakes

There’s no answer as big as the question
There’s no victory as big as the lesson
You go on and you see where your detours
Will take you to
There’s no power like understanding
There’s no beginning like an open ending
You hold on you don’t stop to believe
If you follow through
You will learn what is good for you
Someday soon you will know what is best for you